Take A Deep Breath with Me

Happy Birthday Jieying!!

2007-10-06T01:13:00.000+08:00

Thank you N249, thank you Daddy Mummy, thank you Huimei and Zhen, thank you Lay Kiat Ivy Sanjeev Philip Paolo Jane Serry Yong Richard, thank you Eddie for ur wonderful birthday song, thank you Jim for ur beautiful backup, Thank you MBS for wishing me, thank you Pst for calling, Thank you Irene and Kelvin for going thru the troouble, thank you WYZ for thinking of celebrating. Once again. Thank you so much for making my 22nd a happy and memorable one!! Becos of all of you. 5th Oct 2007 is a memorable day!!

THANK YOU!!

Happy Day

2007-09-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I'm very bored. Haha. Really. I'm suppose to be doing my assignment. But I'm very bored. I'm really rumbling man. Bored. Bored. Bored.

Anyway, I'm a happy child today. Good things happened. Talked to some interesting people. Colleagues that I kind of lost touch with. It's actually very strange to have people not knowing each other. In the past when we used to sit at one big place without walls (literally), share ONE pantry, share ONE toilet, everyone knows everyone. And I'm relatively close to all of them. Especially those sitting nearer me. But now, they sit so far away. And they are so scattered that it's hard to chat. True enough, we see each other everyday. Yet, it's hard to really stop and talk. Well, got to see some of them on the way home today. Manage to talk abit. Hee. Happy :)

I managed to go for zone meeting too!! Yeah!! Exciting man. I realize how nice my zone leaders are. And I guess they really haven't seen me around for a long long time. They were soooo welcoming!! Love you all WYZ!! Witty Youthful Zone. Fantastic!! Many more wonderful days together with you man.

2007-09-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

I know I very weird. Ten years never blog, then one time must blog twice. Haha. Excited ma. Pardon me la hor. Anyway, found this on zhen's blog, very funny. You should give it a shot too. Very interesting.

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
草蜢- Voanda No Ar
(Honestly dunno what it means. First time hearing this song man.)

2) DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Celine Dion - My Heart will go on
(Gosh. Is my life this sad? At least it’s a classic. Hee)

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Pst Phil – Wheel of Life, Spiritual
(Wah!! Very power!! Haha. Knew it all along. Forgot to tell you, I’ve got Pst Phil’s sermon in my iTunes J)

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Christian City Church- Drink
(Must be drowning in my assignments. Need to be free!!)

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Lion King - Can You Feel The Love Tonight
(See!! See!!)

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Don Moen - He never sleeps
(Haha. Our God is Able He is Mighty He is Faithful!! Cast ur cares upon your Him for He careth for you!! My Motto indeed.)

7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
air supply - nothing's gonna change my love for you
(thank you thank you. For all those who r gonna love me forever!!)

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
City Harvest Church - Salvation Is Here (In Chinese)
(Feeling really eerie now. iTunes seems to know I’m doing this thingy. It’s even in CHINESE!!!!! AHHHHH!!!)

9) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ray Peterson - Corrina Corrina
(Who’s Corrina?)

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Maroon 5 - Shiver
(oops zhenying. Oops mei. Oops fel.)

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Anastasia - At the Beginning
(I’ll find him. unexpected but he’ll come!!)

12) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
草蜢 - Lonely
(Zhen..seems like you and I have the same sadistic desire.)

13) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
City Harvest Church - Extraordinary
(Wow!! Indeed. He gotta be extraordinary enough to catch my attention)

14) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hillsongs/Delirious? - Rain Down
(ermmmm. Thunderous ah?)

15) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
陶喆 - wo xi huan
(not bad. Nice tune)

16) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
周星驰 & stars - 相逢何必曾相识
(Joker. Pls never play this at my funeral. NEVER!!)

17) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
enya - a day without rain
(strange. Maybe I’m gonna marry Rain afterall. Sorry folks. Wahaha.)

18) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
五月天 - Heng Xin De Heng Xin
(Wah. All of you very cruel to me hor.)

Back to the Start :)

2007-09-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

Hello!! I'm back. Hee. I think alot of people blogging nowadays so maybe I should revive my blog.

Dear Chin, BF is BUILDING FUND. Some people really think too much leh. CMI.

Dear Fel, I can't believe you actually still read my blog. I think you are the last faithful people around. But really can't believe it has been such a long time. No wonder people say once you pass the 20 beachmark, time fliesssssss.

Anyway, arise and build is coming again!! Very excited! Knowing (as in "knowing by experience) that God can bless and prosper me, I can give in faith!!

Ok. Better go back to my assignments. Rushing like mad. So long.

So long....

2007-02-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

Woah~~it has been so long since I've last blogged. Shows how busy I have been. Hee. To think about it, I started this blog really because I was too free.

Let's trace back to the time I was down and out. To blog about this is so strange since I've told many people about it already. Recently got hooked on GRASSHOPPERS. When I quitted from Joy Connection, I was really in a bad shape. On one hand I was jumping for joy, on the other I had to worry about BF and cash. And because I rejected a job because of weekend shift, I was discouraged and in a bad shape. To cut the long story short, I had a revelation that I'll have a 一秒??机。I was so motivated to send out resumes and search for jobs. I BELIEVED and it happened!! Now I am happily working in Marina Bay Sands, getting a happy pay, gaining new experience, making new friends. It's a good exposure since I've never been to a construction site, what more to work. It's a whole new environment full of guys. For the first 3 weeks, I was the only female and the toilet belongs to me!! Haha.

So for all you out there. The key to a miracle is really prayer and faith. Now I gotta apply this principle to growing my CG. I know it'll come to pass!!

'My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD.' - Hebrews 12:5

2007-01-16T15:01:00.000+08:00

When you get corrected, cop it sweet!
When circumstances challenge you, keep a great attitude!
Mature people show great attitude when they're 'adjusted'.
The ability to accept correction is the doorway to progress.
Owning a great attitude, when you're receiving instruction you don't want, is a key to growth.
If you throw tantrums, sulk, or try to 'get even', you won't grow, and you'll keep the fault that caused the problem in the first place.
What's God teaching you now!

--Phil Pringle

Personality

2007-01-05T16:05:00.001+08:00

Recently my best friend asked me to take a personality test. And here's the result zhenying....

Summary
Jieying, your responses indicate that you are very personable and capable of using either a persuasive style or a tone of direct command in your communications. When you deal with a concept, you look at its general makeup rather than its specific details. You are aggressive, highly competitive, independent, and need to see results. Your nonconformity leads you to be eager about finding new and better methods to accomplish your goals. While making quick decisions and taking risks, you do not hesitate to adopt strategies that might bend standard rules.

Communication Style
Jieying, you are very direct, candid and fluent in your communication style, and you appreciate straightforward answers, based on reality, to your questions. You are very effective in your use of a commanding style rather than a persuasive one. You tend to get straight to the point.
Also, you respond to people with flexibility and open-mindedness. You relay a tone that is uninhibited, creative, and, at times, quite independent.
You express yourself straightforwardly and with candor. You are analytical and you like to be in control. You say exactly what you mean and prefer that others do the same. You are only interested in details if they relate directly to getting results, you readily adjust systems, and you might appear strongly critical of others without intending to do so.Jieying Seow, you relate best to a team when it fits into your selected goals. You drive hard to get things done and, in doing so, may forget other's feelings and ignore their time restraints. You do not tolerate mediocrity readily. You are pleasant as long as results are being accomplished.You push aggressively to get the job done, and prefer not to work under close supervision. You function well when given problems to solve, when allowed to make things happen, and when given specific goals. You are adept at handling technically oriented projects.

Leadership Style
Leadership Style: Authoritative

You perform your leadership role by assuming a tone of direct command, and you are concerned about how you come across to your people. You are inwardly directed and show a lot of self-confidence in your ability to accomplish projects through your people. You tend to take on additional responsibilities and may be disinclined to delegate authority. You make fast decisions, actively promote change, and always look for new ways of reaching goals.

Conscientiousness
You may tend to work more diligently at those tasks that are most interesting to you. You may place more emphasis on satisfying your personal needs than on achieving traditional goals and accomplishments. It is possible that personal anxieties or emotions may have a negative impact on your work. You may prefer to work at your own pace, rather than follow someone else's fixed schedule.

Motivational Needs
Jieying, you tend to be motivated by daily challenges and tangible results. Power, prestige, and rewards for results achieved are important to you. You prefer direct answers and candor in communication. You desire freedom from constant supervision, and control over your own environment. You are most productive when operating under strong, capable leadership, when allowed to make decisions regarding your daily routine, and when you have bottom line responsibility for business activities.You are demotivated by the absence of challenges or significant goals. You can be frustrated when vague answers are given to direct questions, and when your day-to-day tasks are closely supervised. Vacillating leadership demotivates you, especially when it makes you unable to give straight answers to your co-workers or staff.

Primary Motivators

• Daily challenges.

• Tangible results.

• A position with power and prestige.

• Direct answers and candor in communications.

• The respect of the leadership.

• A generous amount of freedom from controls, constant supervision and details.

• The ability to measure results on a regular basis in monetary terms, (keep score).

• Opportunities to be in charge, make decisions and be responsible for the results achieved.

Primary Demotivators

• Not challenged.

• Supervised too closely.

• You receive vague answers to questions.

• Leadership vacillates.

• You lack significant goals.

Emotional Intelligence
Jieying, your responses indicate that you tend to feel at ease in almost any social situation. You easily build rapport, and you do not allow negative emotions to interfere with your social interactions. It is likely that you are proficient in both maintaining relationships and networking. Your negotiation, persuasion, leadership, and conflict resolution skills are probably very well developed.

Happy New Year!!

2007-01-03T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone. Welcome to year 2007!! *clap clap*

In the last few days of the year, many many thoughts go through my mind. I think it was the most "thoughtful" period in the whole year. "What should I do in 2007??" Haha. I successfully completed my Goal Card today!! Hopefully and prayfully, I'll be able to proudly tell you that I fulfill it at the end of the year!!

Honestly, many things happened in the last month of 2006 and I thank God for strength to overcome those issues. I'm glad they are more or less left in 2006 and 2007 is gonna be a brand new year. I've decided to leave things behind and start afresh.

Many many things I wanna do this year. But I know that without God, I can't do much. So most importantly, mus PRAY PRAY PRAY!! and learn to handle disappointments. Very important. My CAPACITY must grow. In the area of emotions, graciousness, work, ministry, studies and disappointments. Yupz.

All the best to you too!!

Esplanade

2006-12-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

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Today, I went Esplanade with the little kids. Haha. How little. Had a great time with Sharon, Vinita and the kids. Tired though. Sometimes I really think I'll miss them when I leave. But they're leaving too. I wonder how their life would be after they leave the centre and after we leave. Haiz. Gonna miss them.

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2006-12-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

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2006-11-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

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Dear BBRs...

2006-11-07T12:22:00.000+08:00

Hello,

I visited many of your blogs today and realized how far I am away from your lives. Once, we were close to the point we see each other everyday, eat together, study together, create havoc together. There was a time, you guys were my only friends. I'm so sorry that I wasn't there for you while you go thru hell. It sadens my heart to read from your blogs the pain you are going thru. Yet, I know you guys are gold that has gone thru the fire. Nothing will tear you down nor force you to compromise. There are many many things out there for the Barbarians to conquer. Stand therefore and do not lose heart! The battles may be the lost but the ultimate VICTORY belongs to us! Women by birth, Barbarian by choice...1 2 3 yes! Haha. I love you all. See you guys at Jingzhi's bday party!! Add me to your blogs k?

Growing up with you,
chicken

Chasing?

2006-11-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

Wendy shared something with us once that started me thinking. 25-28 is a age group when individuals start to feel rather lost. Especially if they have no career, no life partner, it will seem that they are not really going anywhere. That is why Wendy wanted the leaders to do planning with those 23, 24 year olds. Career goals, relationship goals. In another words, it's time to start planning for your life. Then she moved on to say that, if we are "chionging" all the way for our ministry and not really doing much for the career and relationship aspect of our lives, and when we reach 26, 27 and realize that we have nothing, we will really start to regret, or even blame God. Ok, ok. I know you must be thinking, but we must put God first wat, the rest dun need to worry, it will be added onto us. But pls remember, ministry and God is very different. God wants us to be wise and live a balance life!

Honestly when Wendy was sharing, I couldn't really relate. I wasn't even 21 yet at that time (erm...that was august i think). I feel that 26, 27 is so far away, I have time to buy and time to lose. I'm still a student, not much of a career to talk about. But yesterday, a friend of mine shared with me her story. And I begin to feel that it is really important to put our priorities right when we start out in the path of adulthood. Many people tell me that once you pass 21, the rest of the years will start to pass very fast. So fast that the next time you stop to think, it may be too late. So, knowing how unsteady I am in my decision making, I think it's really time to sit down and plan for my future. I begin to realize that maybe it is really not time to get attached yet. There are many things that if I miss once in life, it may never come back. Romance is something my husband can give me in all the later part of our life together, but education, ministry, kick start of a career, it may never come back again. Thus, I'm writing this to remind myself to chase after the correct things in life at this point of my life.

Set priorities right and move with the set priorities.

But most importantly, let God be the One that guides our path. He is our life-giver, let Him be your life-planner!

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Matt 6:33

Bye Mr Miyagi!!

2006-10-26T13:01:00.000+08:00

My best friend jus fed me with the information that Mr Miyagi is leaving the mr brown show. Feel sad...he sounded sad too...and mr brown sounded...indifferent..haha. Best friend say he sound angry.

Anyway, my best friend (yes you!!) is so sick. She took copied the things from Gina and apologised. Then she take my things never even put citation!! The lyrics is not only from Kit Chen, it's from me too can?? Ahaha. Pardon me, I'm jus being mad. I'm suppose to be studying now, but all the abnormal psy are making me abnormal. Haiz...

All the best for your future than Miyagi!!

The man you're looking for?

2006-10-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

I've never been in love. I dunno how is it like, or how does it feels like. But I have seen TV shows and couples ard me. And there's something I realize about women. They are submissive by nature. Especially to their husband. Ok..some people may start to argue at this point. But let me make this clear, women are submissive to husbands who take on the responsiblity and the authority. I'm not sure if you agree, but I guess after all the criteria and standards women set for their life partner, the only thing they are really looking for is a guy who loves them and is responsible enough to take on authority of being her husband for the rest of her life. Women needs a serious man, serious enough to mean forever.

There's something in his eyes.

A simple sigh, a single smile

The charm, the wit, the strength, the gile

Like children need their mother

Like river needs the sea,

Like lovers need each other,

Like prisons need a key,

Like winter night needs fire,

Like temple needs a shrine,

Like lovers need desire,

Like prophets need a sign,

I need Him to be here.

Adam's Diary..Entry 5

2006-10-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

How should I describe this feeling? I feel accomplised because I have fulfilled many things. I no longer need to look after the plants and animals because they are well adjusted into their own laws and enviroment. I walk around the Garden everyday and fly to and fro the land. I wrestle with the lions at times and tease the deers as they run past. I race with the cheetah everyday, but it seems like I always win. I reprimanded the whale yesterday because they were making a mess in the ocean. I climbed the highest tree after that to see if the sunset is more beautiful up there. I am the king of this Garden. But why do I feel so lonely? Why do I feel empty on the inside? Why?

Adam's Diary..Entry 4

2006-10-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

Monday

Yesterday was our rest days. I did nothing but sat at the field the whole day looking at the clouds waiting for sunset. Because I was bored, I began thinking about many things. I reflected on the things I did the whole week. Pretty normal I guess. In the beginning, it was not easy to get the lions to calm down and the birds to learn how to build their nests. Now that I've gotten used to it and the animals had gotten use of me, everything seems easier. When I had the time, I'll always look for the Creator to speak and get wisdom from Him. He's just so wise. He knows everything under the sun. I love listening to Him tell me stories after stories. Just before the sunset, I thought maybe I should pay Him a visit tomorrow. Since there is nothing much for me to do. Nothing much really.

Happiness: Now Version

2006-10-17T11:27:00.000+08:00

Happiness is in the now. What a revelation. I've always told my mbrs (and also take pride in) not to live in the past. Whatever mistake done in the past should stay in the past. Learn from it. Move on. But another thing I forgot is the FUTURE.

To me, future is everything. What is going to happen the next hour? Tomorrow? The next week? I try to plan ahead, look into the future. And at the end of the day, I ask myself, I live in the today, why am I so unhappy?

The Future is in God's hands. Don't worry about it. Live in the now. It's too late for yesterday, don't depend on tomorrow. Live in the NOW.

This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Adam's Diary...Entry 3

2006-10-16T11:00:00.000+08:00

Friday

Life is so much fun!! The Creator brought me to see the rivers and the precious stones. I had fun naming the gold, the ruby, the emerald and a few others. I feel so priviledge to be the one naming and ruling over this wonderful Garden. Everything is simply so prefect. I flew over the Garden today and saw that all are going on well. The Creator says in a few days, He'll send some water down so that the trees and grass and flowers can grow properly. Hmmnnn...the sun set is the most beautiful thing here. I love to sit down and watch tt after a day of work. Simply Beautiful

Adam's Diary...Entry 2

2006-10-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

Monday

I've finished naming all the animals and plants in my Garden. The Almighty said I did a great job and He wants me to start working on the trees tomorrow. There are many trees in the Garden and the Almighty says I can eat of any fruit but the one right in the middle. The fruit of the TREE OF LIFE. I'll take note.

Adam's Diary...Entry 1

2006-10-12T13:42:00.000+08:00

Satuarday

Hi, my name is Adam. It has been one week since I first step on this dirt. Yes. I named it dirt. For obvious reasons, I can only start writing today. I've been set to do many things since the first day. My job, was to name all the plants and animals in this garden. The Garden of Eden.

Hmmmnnn....

2006-10-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

Today, is Monday.

Monday. 2 days since my Birthday celebration. It was a big success I can say. Not all who are invited turned up. But the important people did (oops, did i just say tt? Well, the rest didn't think I was important enough either). Hee..Anyway, thank God. In the afternoon before CG started, it began to rain. Or should I say pour? Man, was I worried. I started praying, stop, and went back to pray. My mum was trying to reassure me that the rain will stop. But I kept on praying.

Then, it stopped. But when I reach ECP, it began raining again.

Tiffy kept telling me that she was confident the rain will stop. Zhipeng says the rain will stop...tml. Thanks so much man. My dad told me to keep trusting God. And.....it stopped!! Ahaha.

But it was so super tiring!! SUPER. I was worried that my friends and relatives were neglected (cos I dun hv the time to entertain all of them) and the people will pang sei. So on and so forth. I was thanking everyone that came, telling them how much I appreciated their effort to come. Wow, it was TIRING!! But it was an experience I will never forget, not in this lifetime.

Sunday, I was talked into going to the basketball trip. I say talked and not forced because initiately, I planned to go. I dunno where did the energy come from, but I went. It was fun. I enjoyed watching them play. No Pat, I wasn't bored. I honestly enjoy watching people play more than playing the game myself. BUT, I dun think I will join them again. Unless I let some people talk me into it again.....

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That Revelation...A Walk w God on the Waters

2006-09-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

Goodness..all of a sudden. I can't remember what I want to write. It's about something Wendy said during zone meeting weeks ago.

Oh yes...A Walk w God on the Waters.

This is a revelation. Wendy always told us about the SuperNatural life we should be leading. I was praying yesterday too. Pst talked about engaging the new friends and it's the best way to grow CGs. I just remembered what Wendy say about knowing certain formulas and buttons to press once you serve a couple of years as a Leader. Which is true. Because God has set certain laws that the world is run by. When you grow apple seed, bound to have apple tree. Even if you are a tyrant. When you apply certain laws and work really hard, your company is bound to earn money even if you have an evil heart. That is why, it is the SUPERNATURAL life we should look for in God.

It's a Walk with God on the Waters.

Can I write 2 pls??

2006-09-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

I dun care..This is my blog. I like to write 2 entries.

Anyway, today I pass by Bt Timah. It's a very nice place. Very interesting. It has a very old colony kind of feeling, yet it reminds me of an old Jap show. The gloomy weather adds on to the atmosphere I think. Nx time, I mus buy an apartment there. Those old, nice and big apartment. Then I can see the sunset there...

Happy Birthday

2006-09-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

You Know...

God is very amazing. He does amazing things you dun understand.

Recently, my birthday is coming. I wanted to throw a party, but I wonder where would all the money come from. All of a sudden, in the course of 1 week. Auntie Wendy called and offered to cook curry chicken, buy chicken wings, chicken fillet, pork chop and so on...She even offered to get Uncle KW to buy me a cake. How wonderful!! Zhenying is happily (I want to think) helping me collect forecast from the leaders. Huimei accompanied me the Shend Siong to check prices. Angela helped to count food and take stock. My dad says he'll transport the food down to ECP. My Mum will cook the rice, Daddy will buy the bee hoon. So exciting!! But guess who's the most excited?

It's God.

He arranged everything for me. The budget that I did not calculate..He calculated and settled. The people that I should invite but was afraid, He touched my heart and made sure those people are there. He's looking from above? No, He's right here beside me. Helping me see if there's anything left out. God is sooooooo excited. He's smiling because I'm finally 21. He has brought me thru this 21 years and He will bring me thru many years to come.

On this special day, if there's anyone I wanna thank, it's God. He was the one that made it possible. Made what possible? you asked. Everything. He made breathing possible, making friends possible, being happy possible.

And I know, this year, just like every other year, He'll give me something that I always wanted.

I Just Can't Wait...

Love...is never wrong..

2006-08-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

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Dun miss the friendship, build it first, then talk abt the rest.
I think too far. Much too far.

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Is it wrong to spend some time with myself??

2006-08-23T18:06:00.000+08:00

Recently have been super busy. So much so that I dun really have time to blog. It all started with my weekend school. I feel like 2 weeks have combined into 1 and it was so unfun.
Monday went out w my aunt. It was tiring yet very fruitful and fun. I haven't been spending time with her in ages.
Tuesday was prayer meeting and zone meeting.
Wednesday was CG prayer meeting. Pray my throat out man. But God gave us a word. He told us not to focus on the thigns that are temporary, focus on those that are eternal. Many times people think that situations and circumstances have changed them and affect their faith. True for a certain extent becos we being human, WILL be tempted. Yet we haven't really realized that God has called us to guide our hearts and mind. WHEN OUR HEART AND MIND IS STRONG, WE WOULD NOT BE SUBJECTED TO THE CIRCUMSTANCES.
Thursday, I'm spending some time with myself. Dun feel selfish gal, dun think abt whether u deserve it. Dun break down becos u refuse to do it.

DAY 1

2006-08-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I prayed. And God spoke to me. Read Ps 75 and had a revelation.
Psa 75:7 But God is the judge; He puts down one and exalts another. For in the hand of the Lord there is a cup, and the wine is red; it is fully mixed; and He pours out from it; but the dregs of it, all the wicked of the earth shall drain its dregs and drink.
God indeed is the Judge, we dun need to be jealous abt the things others have or do. God gives to us the things we do according to our talent and our capacity. Nothing is unglorifying and nothing is glorifying. Dun look at the things others are doing but focus on God.
The wine here speaks about the blood of Jesus. It is fully mixed tells us that when we are all borned again in Him, there should be no individualism. All of us gotta learn to work together. Then when He pours it out, the wicked of the earth shall be drained.

Today will be a new day...

2006-08-09T11:49:00.000+08:00

Indeed, today marks a new beginning. If u ask me why? I dun really know. I'm praying, so pray with me. I think it's time i move to australia to complete my studies. TMC is gonna cease giving Monash courses. They say they try to reduce the impact on our course of studies. But it's rather difficult. It has affected me greatly. Not that I'm not willing to go. I am. It's the finances I'm worried about. So I'm praying, pray with me.

Why people blog?

2006-08-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

Many many people blog...I never knew why. Until one of my friend..erm..a few of my friends, made me read their blog. Then i realized. The blog is the place where friends clarify with one another, make up with one another. Funny how the human mind works. There are things you just can't say, but when you write it out, pratically to thin air, it's much more bearable. Let's hope I stay faithful to my blog.